The Flashing Lights Say You’ll Be Okay: Depression, Binge-Watching Television, And The Importance of Fluff

This is something I wrote a few months ago that’s a little off-brand for this site. I’m not throwing any anime reactions pictures into this one because…well, it’s not about anime at all.  I actually wrote this during a rough patch and wasn’t really sure where to put it. Finally, I’ve decided to post it here. You might not be able to relate to the specifics, and maybe you’ve never seen the shows mentioned here, but I still think that there’s something important here that someone might find themselves in. Trigger warning for depression and suicide mentions, but I promise this is an optimistic post. I’m leaning away from all that doom and gloom these days. Anyways, enjoy this personal slice of my life.


So, here’s something kinda crazy. I think I’m going to be okay.

What made me, someone who has been dealing with depression for a veryyyyyy long time, finally come to this conclusion? Well. I marathoned NBC’s The Good Place today.

That probably sounds like I’m being hyperbolic, right? Like I’m saying, “this show is so good, it will cure your depression!”

Well, I’m not doing that. It’s just what I did today, and it’s what made me realize something very important.

I’m being vague. Let me get a little more specific.

I’m having a very hard time. Sometimes, I forget that I’ve been having a very hard time for a very long time. I’ll have little periods where I’m doing okay, and then I’ll have loooong periods where I’m doing very bad. When I’m doing bad, I lose sight of everything else – I forget about the more lucid times and I forget about the millions of other times I’ve felt bad. More importantly, I forget that I’ve always gotten through feeling bad.

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Happy First Blog-A-Versary, BAYBEEEEE!!!

Today’s the big day, folks! It’s Welcome To Hell Zone’s birthday! I’m really proud that I’ve maintained my little slice of the web for a year. I might not have maintained it consistently…but I’m still proud!

I should be doing something mega-special, right? Well, honestly, me resurrecting my blog from the depths of depression hell is probably the biggest tribute I can give. I’ve been slacking lately, but I’m back, baybeeeeeeeeeeee!

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Our Thoughts on The Best Chunnibyou School Idol, Tsushima Yoshiko (and Her Friends!) – A Collab with Remy from the Lily Garden! [part 2]

Welcome, folks, to part 2 of the lovely Remy and I’s collab about LoveLive! Sunshine best girl, Yoshiko! Click here for part one so you’re not totally lost

Caught up? Good, good. Let’s dive back in!

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Build A Harem Tag: My beautiful harem of angry anime girls

I’ve returned, refreshed and renewed! The two weeks off from blogging was nice – I wrote a bit while I was away anyways, but it felt nice to be free from arbitrary deadlines and worrying about stats. I spent some time with friends, caught up with some things on the home-front, and now I’m good to go! I even have a little backlog of posts queued up, so that I can have more wiggle room to relax. Yay!

So the first thing on the menu was to finally do this harem tag that Cactus Matt came up with! Thank you for the tag! I’ve seen quite a few other people do this, too, and the results have all been really fun. Matt’s harem was top-tier, so there’s a ton of totally no pressure to come up with a good harem.

Here are the rules!

The ‘Build A Harem’ Tag Rules:

  1. Link back to the original post on Anime QandA so they can check out everyone’s picks!
  2. Use the ‘Build A Harem’ logo somewhere in the post.
  3. Make sure to mention the person who nominated you too!
  4. Pick 5 Anime Characters (any show & any gender) that would be in your ideal harem if you were the main character of a harem anime, explain a little bit as to why they are your picks (if you want).
  5. Make sure each character you pick falls into some of the following harem character types: Childhood friend, tom boy/girl, genki girl/boy, loli/shota, tsundere, yandere, kuudere, dandere, etc. (If there’s a character you’ve picked that doesn’t specifically fall into one of these types or falls into multiple types that’s fine too!)
  6. Nominate 5 people to participate in this tag!

I…well, I’m almost afraid what my harem building will bring, because I know I have a Type, and that Type is mean girls. I’m like, the tsundere queen. If she scowls, I’m in. If she’s a bully, I’m in. If she’s killed thousands of people, I’m in. To give a non-anime example to put this in perspective – when I played Life is Strange, I skipped right over Chloe and shipped Max with Victoria. Oh, I totally had a crush on this girl who lightly bullied me in high school. Maybe there’s some psycho-analyzing that needs to be done here…

So here it is, my harem of angry anime girls. They’re all some level of tsundere, I think, so they totally fit into the archetype of harems, right? I just, uh, cheated a bit because that’s pretty much the only type of anime character I included. But, they’re different kinds of tsundere angry! So, like, there’s variety-ish!

(once again, I’m a scrub and I’m using the Western name order, because I confuse myself if I don’t)

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How Mai Yamane brought angry lesbian anthems to the Cowboy Bebop soundtrack

Surprisingly enough, I really haven’t written that much about the Cowboy Bebop soundtrack here. The OST was so hugely influential on my music taste that it’s actually difficult for me to try and put it into words. I’ve brought it up a little bit in one of my Anime Roots post, but it doesn’t really do my feelings justice. The soundtrack is such a huge, sprawling masterpiece of various genres and various tones that I don’t even know where to start talking about it.

Sooooo, why not start by bringing up the single most obscure thing possible!

Have you ever noticed that deep within the Cowboy Bebop soundtrack, there lies multiple songs sung from the perspective of a greasy lesbian hound dog?

Yes, Yoko Kanno & The Seatbelts not only blessed us with a brilliant and iconic soundtrack, but she also blessed specifically me with multiple lesbian blues bops, all sung by Mai Yamane.

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The Bisexual Dystopia of Shin Sekai Yori: or, how an evil anime government tried to make all the kids gay

It’s pride month, so for the whole month of June I’m writing about LGBTQ+ representation in anime and manga! Yay for gay anime!

Okay, so what if I told you there was an absolutely brilliant dystopian anime that featured not one, not two, but FOUR canon bisexuals? Drum roll pleeeeeeeease…

It’s Shinsekai Yori, or From the New World! Not only is this one of the best anime dystopian thrillers I’ve ever seen, but four out of five of its main characters are bi. Not just implied, either…there are same-sex kisses shared on-screen by both the male and female characters. They date each other. They explicitly say that they are attracted to one another. There is no denying their bi-ness.

Or maybe pan-ness? I’m biased, so I’m gonna go with bi-ness.

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Happy Pride Month from the Hell Zone! Here’s what’s in store for June!

Happy pride month, folks! It’s the best time of year – a whole month to bask in my bisexuality. Usually, me and my friends all get together and watch a bunch of gay movies together, and then buy some random rainbow shit that appears at every big chain trying to cash in on the holiday. It’s a good time.

This year, I’m trying to celebrate EVERY DAY this month. Because, hey, not everyone gets a whole month of identity pride, so like, if you got one, might as well celebrate the whole time! I’m going to watch all my favorite gay movies and TV shows, and of course, watch some gay anime.

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It hit me a few days ago – “duh, you should do some pride month themed stuff on the blog!” And so, that’s exactly what I’ll be doing for the month of June. I’m going to specifically talk about LGBTQ characters, specific shows (probably mostly yuri), and of course, tell some stories about what certain gay anime mean to me. Every post will be about something gay-ish, which I guess actually isn’t that much different from the content I normally write…heh.

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